I finished my first cycle through the L.I.F.E. Recovery Guide this Tuesday. We’re going back to lesson one now… Doing the program is helping me so much. I haven’t had a punishment fantasy for eight months, a sexual fantasy for seven and a half, pornography for seven, self-stimulation for six and a half, and binge eating for five. The thing that I’m the most happy about is that the punishment and eating issues have changed so much. Those were the two that affected my life the most negatively. I feel grateful that this program exists.
The L.I.F.E. Recovery program is the best thing I’ve ever come across. It’s exactly what I needed. I still get tempted in all of the above areas but I have so much more to live for than all of that garbage. I think the reason the L.I.F.E. program is working for me is because it’s teaching me how to fill my real needs in healthy ways so that I don’t want the other stuff anymore. It’s creating a new definition of intimacy for me so I’m not as inclined to believe the lies that those things will meet my needs like I used to.
When I did the confession to authority principle (Principle 3 Assignment 3) I went to the pastor of my families’ church because he has been a counselor for me and my family on and off for about seventeen years. He’s seen me at different stages and he said I’m not the person that I used to be. He was praising God that I found this program.
I thought the impulse to hurt myself and get punished would never stop, but it has since I have experienced getting my needs met in more fulfilling ways. My internal definition of what I was looking for is changing a lot.
My counselor is really encouraging me to go through the program again because she sees how it’s been helping me. She seemed relieved that L.I.F.E. suggests 2-3 cycles through the workbook so I can get an even clearer vision for my life.
The sobriety chips have been very effective motivational tools for me especially in the area of self-stimulation. The thought of having to start the count all over has deterred me many times. – A